I’ve been noticing another pattern that has followed me my entire life and I’m wondering what’s about it? What’s for me to learn from it? Is there anything to learn or should I just acknowledge and accept it as being something natural? It’s a pattern that’s making me wonder if I’m missing something, if I should change my ways or avoid the people creating it.
This time the story is repeating itself with person number 3. I’ve noticed that people are maybe scared of too much honesty. I’m the type that’s open about feelings and thoughts and I like to think that I don’t have problems expressing them (most of the times). If I want something, I’ll tell you exactly what I want. If I feel something, you’ll sure know. If I miss you I’ll want to see you. If I don’t feel like seeing you I will be honest and tell you I’m not in the mood to go out. If you are doing something that’s bothering me I’ll tell you I’m not ok with it. And so on…It’s as easy as that.
Now the pattern that I’m talking about goes like this: when I’m honest and open about what I feel and think with someone that person would see it as a weakness and most probably take advantage of it. They wouldn’t necessarily run but they would take it for granted and not appreciate it. At the same time I rarely get the same thing in return, someone that is emotionally grown up and can talk about deep stuff. The deeper I go the more superficial the others become. How frustrating is that?! And when I give up and decide it’s better for me to interrupt contact with that person or when I stop sharing everything without getting anything in return they always come back running. It’s like a switch that’s off and goes on when I become colder.
I wonder why do people react like this to something as simple as honesty. Is it that hard to accept it? Is this the way that I’m going to learn the patience lesson? It’s getting so confusing and I could really use some help from my guides. But they are silent this time, the only thing they say is patience. Ok, but what about meanwhile?
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