Literally sick. Since my awakening I have started to reject more and more of the conversations that make me feel ill. I’ve observed which topics can cause different symptoms in my body and I know what to stay away from, at least until I become better at protecting myself from low vibrational conversations.
I will start with naming some of my symptoms hoping that it will help others in their journey of ascension. When the conversation that I have with someone goes in a direction that is not on the same frequency as I am I get instantly exhausted. I would start yawning like a rude kid without being able to control it. I also get really restless and feel a huge urge to end the conversation straight away, which is obviously almost never possible. Sometimes I can get headaches, or feel a need to run as fast as I can and reset my energy. If the conversation doesn’t stop or if the topic isn’t changed I get frustrated and I can feel the discomfort slowly growing into annoyance. It even happened to me a few times, when my body couldn’t take it anymore, to rush in and say to the other person “Please, just stop! I just can’t listen anymore!” I got many strange looks and it’s hard for me to explain why I react like this to someone that has no clue about these things. I just gently try to make them see how unimportant their material worries are even I am taking the risk of making them think that I’ve lost my mind. Some days are ok for me, by that I mean I can somehow tolerate a bit of conversation that isn’t in my vibrational range, but other days my symptoms can get extreme and I try to stick to topics that are meaningful to my soul.
Now about the subjects that make my body react so badly. Money is the first one. Don’t get me wrong, I do understand the importance of money and I never thought I would be annoyed by it but, since my awakening, I have noticed that money has moved to a whole other level for me. I am not ok having greedy conversations, about how to get a better job that will bring more money, about stressful plans and sacrifices one makes just for money or about giving up on something our soul would enjoy just to get financial benefits. I can’t stand listening anymore to people that tell me how successful they want to become, or how famous, or how many houses they want, how many cars, how many clothes. I think you can get an idea of what I mean.
I also strongly dislike conversations about politics, and just general world wide news and I avoid them at all cost. I am not ready for them, at least in this moment in my life. Right now, I don’t keep up with what is happening around the world at a 3D level and conversations about it make me feel uncomfortable. Talking about others in a mean or envious way makes me sick too. Knowing what others have bought, what business they have, who they had sex with, what they said or did makes me painfully ill. I don’t care knowing if the girl over there has horrible hair or shoes, if she looks like she is offering sex for money or whatever mean comments people make. I can not tolerate it anymore and I don’t feel any need to know those things.
Another thing that I have noticed is the reaction I have when people share with me their plans. Somehow, I know if their plan is according to the Divine plan that is waiting ahead for them. I think it has to do with claircognizance, when I listen to what people say and I get this feeling that it’s not meant for them and that it will not bring them happiness nor get them closer to their soul mission. But, hey, who am I to give advice on that? I just listen and keep these feelings for myself, since I strongly believe that each of us has his own way through lessons.
Looking back at my life before awakening I wonder how I got here? What divine force brought me here? I have never imagined I would feel unable to have random conversations with humans and I never thought I would be affected by it. I sometimes wonder if I will always feel like this or if I will some day be able to make it affect me less? Or will I just filter more and more the people that enter my life and that I vibrate with on the same level?
I hope that by sharing my experience others can relate and understand what is happening with all this awakening and ascension that Earth is going through. You are not alone, hang in there, things will become more and more bright.
Feel loved and spread love! ♥
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November 18, 2016 at 5:46 pm
It’s interesting that you mention this. The other day, we had a training at work about the Transgender and LGBT laws in my state. As soon as the training started, I felt my energy drain. It was just..THE WORST! Then, my palms got very sweaty, i started feeling very anxious, like a heavy weight in my chest that was making me feel very shaky. I actually physically started shaking after I made a comment and someone countered it and started saying something about religion and God and how it’s wrong, and I literally could not control the shaking of my hands and the INTERNAL shaking I was feeling. I almost had to leave, but there were 5 minutes left, and I just waited. But when I got out, I had to breathe! It was so horrible. I’m guessing this is a normal symptom while you are “awakening”. As I’m catching up on your posts, I see that all the syptoms that I am feeling are part of this process, but they are so unsettling and so amazing at the same time!
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November 18, 2016 at 6:34 pm
Could also be part of your awakening but I would rather say that your vibration while you are awakening doesn’t work well with other vibrations that surround us. And obviously discriminating conversations have low vibrations. In think that in time you will be able to tell just by your body’s reaction what has a high vibration and what has a low vibration. Don’t worry, everything will be amazing in the end! It’s worth the little bumps on the way
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November 18, 2016 at 6:38 pm
When you have to be part of activities that don’t make your soul very happy try covering yourself in light, I use white so that nothing can get through! I also pray to shed light on the situation instead of getting darkened by it
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November 18, 2016 at 6:47 pm
I’ve been surrounding myself with a mirror ball, that reflects all of the negative energy away from me…that seems to work when i’m in crowded places like the metro, or a crowded city street. There is so much to learn and I can’t seem to find the information fast enough!
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November 18, 2016 at 6:51 pm
I’ve never used mirrors because I know it reflects back so it could be potentially harmful for others. But as long as it works for you it should be fine. There are indeed so many things out there to learn but the most important ones, in my case, are found within! Somehow my body knows exactly what to do and when to do it to get me to safety and to happiness.
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November 18, 2016 at 7:12 pm
wonderful advice…thank you…
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November 18, 2016 at 7:13 pm
My pleasure! Thank you for sharing your experience!
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September 26, 2020 at 4:03 am
Hmm, having similar experiences as of late (past month or so). When I hear someone gossiping, I get the intense feeling of streering the conversation towards something more positive, like complimenting the person who is being talked about. To sort of “counter” the mean gossipping unfolding before me. Also had an experience where I was being purposefully being psyched into feeling fear, anxiety, and disgust. This happened via being shown gore videos, perverse material, and being asked questions like “whats the worst gore-vid you’ve seen?”. At this point I straight out said: “can you f**ing stop this? you’re either doing this on purpose or sub-consciously, but in any case its affecting me in a deep level and I don’t like it”. Oh boy am I glad I said it, the person doing it immediately realized what he had done, showed deep remorse and apologizied. I learned that I have to be 100% transparent about my feelings, also better to speak out sooner later than later. It was a great lesson to have, no regrets, although I could’ve stopped the train in its tracks a bit sooner. Glad to see other people having similar reactions to somewhat similar situations. Keep it up people, we’re changing the world into a better place.
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December 16, 2020 at 8:37 pm
Hello Jones and sorry for taking so long to reply to your comment. Somehow I didn’t get a notification about it but here I am.
I get exactly what you mean about wanting to steer the conversations on a more positive note. In my case that’s a clear sign that my frequency is higher in that particular moment than of the others involved.
Some people will try to pull us back down to their level, if not even lover. Speaking our own truth and setting boundaries (easier said than done haha) will always be the best thing we can do.
Thank you so much for sharing your experience
Lots of love, Alexandra
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